I saw the cardinal in my back yard. I felt it was waiting for me. Why? Oh. Today is April 15th. I stood there watching it wondering if it would fly off soon. Marveling that it was there that long. Should I try to capture it in my camera? I just stood there looking at it, afraid that if I took those five steps to get my phone it would leave. I took a chance. It was still there. I lifted the camera hoping for something to keep with me. The cardinal lifted away. It wasn’t coming back. I would see it again but not just yet. When my face became wet and my shoulders began to shake, I told myself that there was nothing wrong with crying some more. It was okay.